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> boyfriend gets you pregnant
> boyfriend leaves you to go back to his other baby momma, gets arrested for violating restraining order and goes to jail for 5 months
> sends you jail letters talking about weird shit the entire time
> you and i laugh at his horrible grammar, and you let me hate him and go on about how much of a jerk he is, without stopping me because you somewhat agree
> he comes back from jail, you guys love each other again

- i obviously don't like it and whine about it constantly

> a few months later i decide i've whined enough...

>... until the fights start
> you both fight at least once a week, usually because he would get drunk
> he treats you like the shit through the rest of your pregnancy, putting off getting a real job while you work until just a week before the baby is born
> the NIGHT before the baby is born, he accuses you of having sex with some guys when you went to go get a new vacuum cleaner
> the next day he watches the baby get born, has a beer and then takes a nap while you have to stay up
(around this point is where i called you because i was having a panic attack or something and i missed you a lot, and my aunt had to come check on me because of how bad it was getting)
> i cry because it sounds like you're really tired and worn out
> let me repeat, I SHOW VISIBLE PAIN FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH HELL BECAUSE OF THIS GUY

> baby comes home, he doesn't do much for the first month or so, still doesn't get a job
> fights
> beer
> fights and fights
> i'm trying to keep my cool because the first few fights i freaked out and got a knife in case he put his hands on you but it's hard because i don't want him in my home
> more fights
> some more fights
> hey guess what we're doing
> fighting
> AND THEN HAVING MAKE-UP SEX
> and then fighting the next day

MEANWHILE I am

- rebelliously not doing the dishes to show i'm not content with this relationship
- watching the baby when he goes out for a smoke
- taking care of the baby because even the BABY hates him
- occasionally, OCCASIONALLY, giving a little grief to YOU PERSONALLY about him because i just get fed up sometimes
- and sending you ONE SONG that accurately depicts his attitude ("Snakes" by Voltaire)

so why the fuck do you feel the need to tell me just how SHITTY i'm acting, exactly?
where does all my shit factor in against this dumbfuck?

and don't pull the "you've hated all my boyfriends" on me. i like scott and the guy with the Model A and dwayne and frank and bill and his kids and i even liked joe a little.
at least 90% of them gave a fuck about ME, TOO and NOT JUST HAVING YOU FOR SEX

stubborn bitch

by the way i pretty much only listed the shit he did

i didn't include all the lies and the hurtful things you did to me in this process


and i'd also like to mention the nightmare i had the other night
where he actually DID put his hands on you and i grabbed him by the throat and choked him