its days like this

that make me want to permanently switch over to red
at least then i can be strong
instead of this weak... sad pile of shit

I'm so tired of being weak and negative and crying all the time
i don;t want to live in this stupid house anymore
i just want to sdtop being me all the time

letting the voices finish my sentences

I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe I... need to be locked away

My legs feel like jelly, I shouldn't stand because I might... start running from the cops

I don't feel so good, the only thing that will help me now is... if I take all of the pills in the medicine cabinet

I don't feel good, I think I might die

Why am I such a hard ass, I don't mean to destroy everything I touch

Where did my good emotions go they died with everybody else including her

some days i miss being an ignorant little fuck that got seriously pissed when i broke a nail

at least back then my issues were small and careless

now i go to bed and stare into nothing and just wonder why the fuck i did what i did
why the fuck
did i do what i did

why the fuck did i do it


why the fuck

was i made this way


why the fuck can't i do anything right


why the fuck can't i get over my pride

why the fuck do i have people in my head

why the fuck do i want to hurt people and hurt myself and hurt everything


why the fuck can't i be happy for more than five seconds

why the fuck do i have to blame everyone else


why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck
why the fuck did i ruin my life